Some sorts of endings.

We never realize how fast time goes by. Its until you put up a new calendar on your kitchen wall and then dashing one by one the twelve pages on it flip away and by tomorrow you'll be putting a new one up!
So while you change your calendar or cook dinner for family and friends and I type, the inevitable happens time slowly dies and then you realize everything you once were or anything you once did will no longer be or exist and that is quite true in a way, that's how the whole deal of being a better person and doing new things for a new year heroically exists.
Now while I am the kind of person that believes this is kind of a big deal, after carefully thinking and going back, it isn't necessarily a real ending is it? I mean it doesn't mean that you're gonna change in twenty four hours to be a whole different person or do new things.
The choice is there its not an annual type of a choice only, its more an "always" type of choice.
Tomorrow when I get up I hope I don't choose to be different because I want to feel good or be accepted, I want to do it because I know that I want to do whats right.
So if in two days or two weeks I haven't achieved that, then I hope I don't have to waste my entire year and wait to change again, because its an "always choice" the choice of ending something whenever you want.
Its true anyways that  today is some sort of ending, but not just today or tomorrow is when you can change.

I pray that I live for God and that same way that his mercies are new each day, that Ill try my best to live for Him. I don't just want to feel new and excited the first day of a year I want my entire year to feel like a new day. So I'll keep that in mind.

Well Happy New Year Everyone!

The unfailing love of the LORD never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day. I say to myself, "The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!

- Lamentations 3:22-24

Hide your clocks,timers and alarms!

Today I turned 19!

Life for me would be hard to describe: it can be long or short, or short and slow, or long and fast...

I thought about how crazy this moment would be, this is my very last year being a teenager (and for all those who know me you know how much I joke about becoming boring after your 20 hahaha) seriously as much as I am thankful to God for all His mercies, blessings, and abundant grace, I still wish I could find the PAUSE button somewhere and press it.

Thankfully I can understand, we are not eternal time moves on, we can one day be all that we are, and the next, everything's gone, its life! We shouldn't expect it to be an everlasting/unchanging/unmoving pond where we can just swim around and be the same old boring fish all the time. It's how its supposed to work.

So I tell you, looking throughout my life I have been able to see that God has been working everything out, since the very first second that I caught my first breath, to the moment when I reached eternal life through His grace, to the time when I shall forever be with Him. He's been there, He is here, He will be there!

So lets stop seeing life as the reason why watches, diaries, clocks, timers, newspapers and all that time telling, time stopping stuff , was made for; life was made for us let God take full control of, and to be used according to His plans, and so that they could bring glory to Him!

SO PLEASE!! hide clocks, timers, alarms and all!! Don't worry God's there and He's waiting for you to let Him take full control of your life!

Just let Him do it and enjoy life with a big smile! :)

(by the way... what I said about hiding clocks, and alarms, it was just an illustration, I dont want you late for anything tomorrow :D )